I didn’t think I’d write a poem about him. But then, there it was inside, insisting to be let out. Barking at the door, you might say.
So I’ve written it for days…bits and pieces would come to me, along with tears…while on walks…while driving….I’ve been needing to keep a pen and paper near by. And a box of Puffs.
ODE TO SHILOH
Memories of you dance through my mind and heart. Each one feels like a poison arrow or dart.
And yet they are such sweet thoughts I can’t resist, Watching you again, through the mental mist.
The little things you would always do, The smile in your eyes that said “I love you too”.
Being ‘Sheriff Shiloh’, or silly, or calm, or aloof, Being my protector, with an ‘arf’ or a ‘woof’.
Playing with toys wasn’t your thing, But you were highly entertained, listening to me sing!
And ensconced on the bed, no way would you budge, Not with a push, or a pull, or a nudge.
Offered a treat, you would just look away. Wherever you snuggled in, that’s where you’d stay.
So Joy and I would have to find our spot, And sleep that way, comfy or not.
I didn’t really mind, because part of me knew, Some dreadful day, there wouldn’t be you.
You loved for the brush to stroke your fur, And to be told how beautiful you were.
You had such eye lashes as I’ve ever seen. Certainly the envy of every princess and queen.
You were always there for a scratch or a pat, And how many times on my foot you sat.
i have memories of you rolling in cow pies, and chasing a deer, And running through fences, to catch you a steer,
And there’s the time the coyote lured you….come near… He was hoping to have you for dinner, I fear.
Rabbits and squirrels and kitties would run, But you’d never hurt them, it was all in good fun.
We three traveled together, all over this land, Four years you wandered woods, fields, and sands.
You explored untold lakes, and rivers and streams, And at night you’d relive it in all your wonderful dreams.
As I’d drive you’d stare out the window, miles on end. What were you thinking of, my solemn, sweet friend?
And often, as I turned, to look back at you, You were staring at me, because that’s what you’d do.
”Let’s go for a walk” we’re the words you lived for, and then, When we got back your eyes would ask “can we go again?”
You loved CLR, where you could run free, And pee on the cactus with impunity.
Folks kept stopping by with a treat, As if you and Joy didn’t have enough to eat!
But the misty beach on the Monterey Bay Was the place you loved best….the place Joy and I will stay.
You’ve been my sunshine for so many years, You helped me through life, and so many tears and fears.
You were my comforter, when I was sad. When I looked in your eyes, nothing seemed bad.
You were noble and stoic, you would never complain. It was hard for me to tell when you had any pain.
For you to suffer, wasn’t part of the deal. So I let you move on, no matter how I would feel.
I held on tight as I let you go. And I’m still holding you tight in my heart, I guess you know.
My innocent boy, so full of peace. Now you’re free of cancer, with loving release.
I miss you each minute, my beautiful boy, Though your sweet, sweet spirit is now part of me and Joy.
I have to believe that, because there’s no possible way, I could get by without you for one single day.
”Mommy love Shiloh” forever and then, “Mommy love Shiloh” forever again.
Into eternity, beyond space and time, I will be yours and you will be mine.